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Some parts of the e-mail I sent RT, 09/14/07Well, with Mutant X, he did not propose that we just be friends. I did and he agreed. I asked him, "Can we be just good friends now?"I noticed we are more free when we don't talk about the possibility of being "us." And I actually told him maybe it would be easier if we start forgetting each other. To this he said he cant decide about that for now but

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White or otherwise.I never thought they were there until I saw myself caught in the middle of those silky threads. Woven perfectly. Freshly spinning all around me.After everything I found out that night, I don't know how I'd listen to you again. (Sigh.)Why did you even have to lie?I thought I knew you. Now I know I don't.

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Moonpools and Caterpillarsooh it,s said and doneooh im not the only onehow was i to knowno one told me soi just landed here and struggled to get bynothing much to seeoh so naiveand then it hits me like it has 1,000 timesone day soon it's going to happen to youand when it does it wont be prettyone day soon it's going to happen to youand when it does...i wont be thereooh it's said and doneooh im

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I joined a church choir when I was nine years old. In the choir, I met Denmark (D, despite the name, he's Filipino). I found out later that he had a crush on me.Ace (A) always followed me around and he gave me cards ang gifts and his other friends, Ariel and Onel, were also teasing me to him. (I probably looked like a lost kitten back then.) All the choir members were all teasing me to A but

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Well, the overdue company outing will push through on Friday night. I don't understand, however, why it's on Friday when most of us have to go to work the next day.We're just dining out. And I'm going to sing (probably their way of keeping me off the table).I wasn't originally included in the group to perform but since the guys who play the instrument like "King of Pain," a coworker woke me up

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Well, I just came back from a trip. "A" was with us but he was in a different group so we didn't stay in the same hotel. I already saw him when I arrived at the airport. And of course, we shared some mishaps together. But it was fun.I liked "A" since last year. I met him in a company training and another friend had a crush on him. He wasn't the type I'd like immediately. In fact, he was

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It was a business trip and I was somehow surprised to see him there although I know I shouldn't be at all. It's funny that we never talked. There was no obvious reason we should but there wasn't any reason why we shouldn't either. It just felt weird.Many times I'd catch him staring and I was too shy to reciprocate. But I know I'd enjoy looking at him. But I was too shy to be caught so I only

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I'm up with the "if you don't want me, I don't want you either" game. That means no greetings, no messages, nothing from him nor for him.Well, at times, I think about it too and ask myself if this is how I want it. Honestly, the answer is no. I actually want to get this over with. But I keep finding myself "being ignored, confronting him about it, meeting for a while, being ignored again"

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Delaying time, I slowly walked home. It was late but relatively early for a Friday night. I saw the people dancing with the lights. I miss those lights.The cold breeze slowly provided relief, wiping the thin sheet of sweat that envelopes my forehead. It is again another time I'd start the endless introspection. For the past few days I've been looking at where I am and where I had been. Not

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He stands as confident as Lex Luther minus the sinister looks but with an ounce of boyish grin.He enters the room and I can't help but look, still afraid of getting caught. He joins me in the elevator and shared some 15 floors to endure. I was standing behind him and he didn't look back. Tongue-tied, I wasn't even able to at least say, "Hi!" Anticipating we touch the ground, I shifted my gaze

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Love is a conversation...

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When I saw him, his confidence and way of talking appealed most to me. But I never thought of him often When we became groupmates in a company training, I made a good impression by swinging on top of a tire and falling from it palm flat (oh, shit!). When I got so embarrassed in the business meeting, he was standing behind me.We've been introduced once or twice in the elevator car and probably

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These are the answers I gave Mike for his Truth or Dare.If you've read my previous posts, my answer to No. 1 is related to this post.=====1) Tell me about a time that you did something totally oppisite from who and what you are. A time where you threw all caution to the side and went for it. What was it you did and what was the results of your actions and how did you feel afterward? I was 19 when

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Since I was young, I've always separated matters of the family from school and the other activities that I have. My friends know my dad, my mom and my siblings because I often invite people to come to the house. But I barely dicuss with them issues or problems that I have or had at home. In fact, as I write here while tears stream down from my eyes, I don't think I'd be able to tell this to

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I am posting my first post on restrained outbursts. I chose not to edit it. There are some Tagalog words, but they won't change the letter.This is a letter a 19-year-old girl wrote and sent a few hours after she was told she can no longer communicate with him because he was going to Hong Kong.=====Hello! You are probably in HK by the time u read this. Well, I made this the night you told me

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As I trail the sidewalk, I catch the eyes of the passersby. I hardly know them. They hardly know me. Much do they care about my existence or non-existence. Inside the suits and glasses are frail bodies and weary eyes, surrendered dreams and pains of frustration.These are the people whom students look up to. I once dreamt to be like them. And when I came to where they've been, the first step

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Well, I've not posted much in here. If you want to read (almost) daily posts, proceed to restrained outbursts.=====I tell myself I'm over with this. But it keeps on coming back. The impact becomes lesser felt. But to what extent, I don't know.We were the best of friends and then she came into the picture. It became them. I befriended her and episodes of Felicity was one of the few things we

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As defined in Landmark Education, strong suits are one's fundamental and automatic ways of being that produce results yet leave him/her unfulfilled.Perfect story to understand a strong suit (as given by Alain Roth):There was this lady who had a crush on this guy in high school. She liked him so much. On the night of the school dance, he went towards her. And when she thought he was about to

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from www.eskimo.com1. I believe that if anything is worth doing, it would have been done already. 2. I shall never move quickly, except to avoid more work or find excuses. 3. I will never rush into a job without a lifetime of consideration. 4. I shall meet all of my deadlines directly in proportion to the amount of bodily injury I could expect to receive from missing them. 5. I firmly believe

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In the seventh session of the LFIA:Intention of the session: To distinguish your fundamental and automatic way of being that produces results yet leaves you unfulfilled.The intention simply means we are about to review our strong suits. Before that, we had discussions on how we handle our upsets, giving up our stories of other people, creating a difference, and what how we can take life as to

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This is a letter I sent to him. I wanted to complete with him. Even until now, I still want to see him again. So I set aside looking cool and looking good, letting everything out. He has not replied to this yet and neither do I think he would. But somehow, having everything said makes it bearable. I've said what I wanted. Does it hurt? Yes. But lesser than what I expected. Even reading

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Evening's Topic: Reviewing Rackets (persistent *chronic* complaint + way of being)Fifth Session's Intentions:1. To distinguish what it is to make a difference.2. To complete distinguishing ways of being which are unwanted yet persist, such that you are left with a new freedom to be and empowered to share, participate and contribute in life.THE FOUNDATION OF EVERYTHING WE DO IS INTEGRITY.

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On the same stage, I perform the same play everyday. That includes committing the same mistakes over and over again. I missed saying the same lines and have a hard time expressing how I feel. Ironic it is, that being in a play, I still pretend to be someone else. Using every possible strong suit to make myself look good.In the theater that I am in, people come and go. And often, I find the

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I never realized the distinction at first. I only thought they were both forms of statements. In my LFIA notebook:ASSERTIONwith PROOFthere's an evidence of validitymay be true or falsecould be accurate or notDECLARATIONNOT an assertionmore of a STANDTo most people, when they say "I love you," they take it as an assertion.

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"You know I can't leave you," he said."You know I can always leave you," I replied.With gloomy eyes he said, "Now I know."The elevator opened and he stepped out."I just choose not to," I could have added.

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a repostAnd then you said, "Sorry if I heart you..."By then, I didn't understand.I now realized I never listened. 'Coz I was more grounded to the voice inside my head than to reality.Which was how I felt.*sighs*It's an immobilizing a freezing wind...

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Landmark Relationship Seminar, I read...Well, that would be LANDMARK LACK OF RELATIONSHIP SEMINAR to me...Yeah, I have acknowledged it. I am upset coz I'm not in any relationship right now. To be more accurate, since birth. My friends usually come to me to talk about their realtionships and ask for advice. I do give them and they say I am of help. Probably because I am still in my ideal

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This was part of the discussion we had during the second session of the LFIA series. Below is how Landmark Education defines and describes responsibility:Responsibility Responsibility starts with saying you are cause in the matter. Responsibility is not burden, fault, praise, blame, credit, shame or guilt. In responsibility, there is no evaluation of good or bad, right or wrong. There is

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I choose to post my thoughts and newly grasped ideas in the seminar that I am attending. I have not posted some lessons that I have learned from the Landmark Forum that I've attended on August 26, 27, 28 and 30. I have other lectures on the first three meetings of the LFIA series, too.The purpose of this blog is to express my thoughts and "ontological orgasms" about the forum and share them

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In just one night, I was able to work on my freedom page for the Vox Interactive CD... i could have done better but i'm proud of this one...

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